2 very unfortunate incidents in one week caused me to write both of these (there very personal)…
Nana (Eileen Denby)
Its a painful moment when we realise your not here
A life i do not know of overwhelming fear
we will remember you and miss you everyday
your in my heart and life each time…
- Dexter Morgan (via weplayedwithmatchesintherain)
I will be such a happy girl after tomorrow afternoon, I am sick to death of revision right now. I think I’ll be okay with my last one being psychology, but I know that right after tomorrow I need to start looking for a job, preparing + booking my theory test. Blegh, life.
So scarily similar to what I was just thinking!
It was like all along your plan was to make my life to hell, knowing that I wouldn’t be able to stand up to you, believing that you were always stronger than me. Somedays I believe that too, especially today, now that even in a room full of people I feel so fucking alone and that you tore away at every bit of confidence I had. Somedays I believe that, but most days I don’t. Not anymore, I won’t let you have the satisfaction of knowing you succeeded ’back then’. I won’t let you control me, and I won’t let you control my life.
- (via chrlttnylr)
If This Isn’t Love - Jennifer Hudson
There are days that I wake up, and I think “I want change” in all meanings of the phrase. I want to cut my hair short and dye it, or paint my eyelids in crazy coloured eye shadow, or talk to someone I admire but don’t know well. I want to catch a bus to an unknown place, or go to a cinema alone, but I can’t gather the courage to do these things, I ought to be more free and worry less